Thursday, March 29, 2018

A Year of Therapy Completed!

I am back!

last few times I blogged I spoke about making the decision to start therapy and discussed my first couple of sessions. Starting therapy has been a life changing experience; life changing indeed. I am thankful I was very lucky to have a cool therapists on my first try and I did not have to shop around. I am thankful that I felt safe enough to start opening my world to him- things so old, disguised, and hidden came out. I was able to discuss events in my past that I have kept a secret. I know now that keeping those events in my life hidden only hurt me. I realize I am more powerful, resilient, and I own my own life. I have a voice. I am a survivor.

It's been like two weeks since I graduated from therapy and I do miss going. Like my husband mentioned to me it's like learning to ride a bike. You eventually start losing your training wheels and you let go on your own. I am thankful I had the opportunity to go weekly and I know I struggled with the decision to go at first and at times I did not want to go, the times I got angry at my therapist, the times that I struggled with the pain but to be honest it's one of best thing that has ever happened to me.

I have faith that I can continue making it through my obstacles, daily struggles, and deal with whatever comes my way in a positive way. I no longer recognize my earlier entries from this blog let alone the years previous in my life. The way I choose to deal with such events- I forgive myself. I lacked the knowledge and will to deal with things in a positive manner. Now I know how because I was given the tools to do so and can implement them through out the rest of my life.